Tuesday, February 10, 2009

One night staring @the moon….

Tired, with a heavy head and without a wink of sleep another late night, i finally shook the lazy bones and pulled myself up… still half drowsy ducked in the blanket and undecided whether i should hit the pillow again ?! I wondered whether being an insomniac worsens when 100 thoughts per second are being processed in your brains…or…rather this unrelentless thinking all the time has in fact contributed to insomnia… Ahh, chuck the philosophy…

As a ritual i was fumbling to lay my hands on glasses; watch or cell to check out the time… Aggh, in vain… may be, didn’t really care… with the blurred vision i tried getting accustomed to the moonlight outside… some how shining so brightly as if giving me the direction i needed in lyf… For a second, Hariharan’s melodious tune of Chanda re rang through my ear drums ?!

Aimlessly with tired eyes i just stared back at the moon as if searching for answers… questions and questions had dwelled in me lately bothering my head…

Don’t worry about the Big offers… you have slogged your ass for 5 yrs screwing college life to make this profile…

May be an old friend tagged you arrogant after 5yrs but you earned it, live with it… Don’t care what people think of you… They can be wrong…

Am i really the good guy or just too slow and covering up?! May be…Lyf just happens when you waste your time thinking about it ?!

Stop being rash again… control rage and speeds… I was always chilled out, right ?!

Sometimes you just don’t recall if you spent an eternity thinking about your lyf and finding the possible solutions while looking through the window, just staring at the moon… But ya, it made me feel good…

But what happens when the foundations of the new found self – belief really speaking never existed ?!

The very next moment, my fingers found my specs somewhere…finally !!! I put them on to get the rosier, brighter picture of what i was glancing at, through the window since hours… Aaarghh, its not the moon, just a distant street light ?!

In a fit of frustration i threw my specs away… Even the moon isn’t mine anymore… Is everything in life so delusional ?! Am i really lost in darkness and just a stupid eternal optimist ?!

But i calmed down and soon realised, all the answers have always been in me deep down… My lyf, my introspection… I don’t need anybody’s support to believe in myself or to feel good… I can make my own happy journey… Phew, why worry…?!

I don’t need any Moon to guide me in lyf, i will work my way out even with a street lamp… Let lyf happen…m ready !!

1 comment:

vishal said...

only thing ur article is missin is thinkin abt a gurl which is normal between 21-24 right mohit... anyways good one agian..don think so much it affects others also..lol keep writin keep rockin